11:22

This hole in my chest feels so huge right now.
Like it's growing beyond the capacity of my body.
I can't breath. My chest is tight, my ribs feel like they are breaking from the inside out.

Is this what alone feels like. What loneliness feels like?
Screaming voices inside my ears, until I find a way to cut them out..

I cut them out.

This emptiness feels like it is ripping its way through my body.
I feel completely cut open, and I don't want the pain to stop.

... And She Went

“Why did he write to her,
“I can’t live without you”?
And why did she write to him,
“I can’t live without you”?
For he went west, she went east,
And they both lived.”

--Carl Sandburg

TBT post (My Blue Heaven)

4/4/2008

Told in stories written on walls of bathroom stalls
a beautiful girl with a smiling face.

I wanna see myself the way you look at me
dark brown eyes, a cute freckly face,
kindness and beauty ..

why can’t I see what you see
why can’t I see what you see?