She never asks for much, but she always wants more

I open
My mouth
To speak

but silent

"iloveyous"

fall to the ground

with such force
I can't help but to cry.

Sadly those silent

"pleaseforgivemes"

were the only words

I had power to say.

It kills me because

I have
So much
On my mind

So many
Things I need
To tell you.

I have
All the words

I didn't have
The courage to say

Trapped in my mouth.

They're choking me

I can't breathe..

And as I swallow

All the things
I wanted to say

All the feelings
I wanted to share

They all fall

To the bottom

Of my stomach

And are lost forever

Inside of me.

It burns
And it hurts

But it was just easier

To say
I didn't love you

To say
I wasn't in love with you.

It was easier to lie

And pretend
I was ok.

It was easier

Than living

With the pain

Of knowing I wasn't

And easier than

Admitting I'm not.

I've made my rounds

Once or twice

And filled my head with

"hersandthemsandonenightstands"

But still I wake up

Missing you.

I wake up
Wanting you.

I know its done and
Over, with nothing
Left to say..

(This is the last time I write to you. The last time I reach out my hand with the hope that you'll reach back. I know I fucked up, I'm sorry)