because you found me and you changed me

I was electrified
I was terrified
I was young and that lonely highway didn't mind.

You were blue eyed and lovedrunk
I was fascinated
I was wide-eyed and willing.

I was whole and now I’m wilting..
But I’m still fascinated
I’m still wide-eyed
I’m still reeling
I’m still pulling at what pleated pieces of you I've got left in the bottom of my pockets

Because you found me and you changed me.

You were summer storms
You were swollen and sunburned, and I followed you where ever your lightening decided to strike.

Sometimes I tell people about you like it doesn't hurt
Like this isn't hard
Like it’s just lint
Just loose change
Some backyard apologies
Some long lost stars we tried to collect in our collarbones once
Some bottom of the ninth summer we forgot by the fall.

We dug our selves a grave
Took everything this world gave
Never regretted a goddamn thing.

We loved like it couldn't break
Even when it did.

Four years. I only had you for four years.
But I did not cry
I did not mind
I was mesmerized
I felt something

It’s gone now, but it comes back in flashes.
You dancing in the kitchen
Getting lost in another state
The tangles in your hair
The long drive from Arizona
The times you let me fall asleep in the space between your shoulder and your neck
When you told me I made you feel safe.

You’re gone now
You've been gone for awhile
But I know I felt something.

I didn't cry because..
I know for the rest of our lives that at least once there was a moment in the middle when we felt something.





Something.

The Sound Of Tears

Sometimes when I'm crying and I have my earbuds in..
I feel like my tears are the loudest tears in the world.

I wonder if anyone else can hear them fall.